Quite a few years ago now, I started building an instrument
based on feedback in my computer. I was away in some other town at the
time. I was selling my time, and regretting it. I desperately needed a
way to express something other than servitude. I’ve kept working on this
project ever since, and it has evolved and changed a lot over the course
of maintaining this project. I enjoy the environment that the instrument
has become very much. It feels a lot like having a conversation with an
old friend at this point. Most days I’ll use what I’ve already built to
make music, but every now and then I’ll want to try a new idea of some
kind. I’ll then rebuild some aspect of how to control things, using a
different approach, or I might add new functionality, or I might tweak
the behaviour of some aspect of the synthesis. This work is very
rewarding for me and I hope I get to keep exploring this for a long
time. My ambition is to make a new audio file every day and to post that
here, in my archive. This routine helps me stay balanced. This project
gives me the opportunity to return to a particular way of listening that
I enjoy. As I am returning again and again to the same place, I am
fascinated by how I get to experience new things each time. I am
reminded of the story of the stone garden in Ryōanji. It’s impossible to
view all of the stones held within the garden from any vantage point.
The set of all possible configurations of this system is similar in that
it is very large. I like to keep busy. I never want to have the kind of
problem where I’ve lost touch with what it feels like to complete a
piece of music. This way, the last time I felt it, is never more than a
day away.